our family has been through much grief & mourning (read about our our sweet caroline & my beautiful mom). there were moments during that grief that i had no idea how i would go on living. i had no idea how things would ever be "happy" & "normal". i felt like i couldn't breathe. i felt the deepest sadness i have ever known. we expected the outcome to be much different than what we were living... i had dreamt of much joy & rejoicing & life; & instead death & tears & emptiness. i look back now & have NO IDEA how i physically, emotionally & spiritually made it through that season!
praise my gracious, good & loving Father for His sustaining grace! there is no explanation other than Him! it is not humanly possible to bear those kinds of emotions & sadness & end up "ok". He sustained us & gave us joy & peace in the midst of those things.
He has turned our grief into gladness! we still have moments of sadness, but praise His name for His restoration & healing!
"You have turned for me my mourning into into dancing; you have loosed my sackcloth & clothed me with gladness, that my glory may sing your praise & not be silent. o Lord my God, i will give thanks to You forever!" psalm 30:11-12
we rejoice in the testimony our Lord has given us to share with others who are dealing with death & grief. we want to be used by Him to encourage those who are in the middle of deep sadness & loss. we ask that He would use us & believe that this is some of His purpose in what we've been through.
"give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever." psalm 136:1